My Story

My name is Yeshua Adonai, and my story is one of thresholds.

I've lived through war, silence, revelation, and collapse, and emerged with a devotion not to answers, but to presence. What I offer is not theory. It's lived.

Raised in a fundamentalist Christian home, I spent my early life navigating shame, spiritual fear, and the longing to be seen. As a Marine Corps Staff Sergeant and diplomat, I served in combat zones and intelligence roles, surviving war, espionage, and moral injury. These experiences cracked me open. They also seeded the questions that would shape my life.

A spontaneous spiritual awakening in Berlin in 2007 initiated me into a path I didn't expect. With no prior knowledge of energy medicine or mysticism, I entered a state of pure love, out-of-body awareness, and inner knowing. That moment became the seed of everything to come.

But awakening didn't spare me from unraveling. I've known homelessness, divorce, parental alienation, supporting partners through cancer, and grieving loved ones lost to illness and suicide. I've carried complex PTSD, treatment-resistant depression, and severe anxiety. Healing didn't come from one path. It came through ceremony, therapy, nature, meditation, parenting, and a long walk through darkness. Psychedelic experiences were among the modalities that helped me find my way back.

Along the way, I discovered that I am a contrarian and neurodivergent thinker, shaped by learning many languages, living across dozens of zip codes worldwide, and spending long seasons at the edges of culture. I also know the world of leadership and achievement, serving across the military, U.S. government, purpose-driven nonprofits, global corporations, and Silicon Valley startups. But it was life's unraveling, not its accolades, that taught me how to walk beside others.

I changed my name after leaving public service, not to become someone new, but to return to who I've always been. Yeshua, to remember I am whole. Adonai to remain in devotion to continual evolution. Choosing a name was a reclamation of identity, a stake in the ground for the life I now live. And an invitation to see all of life in its ever-expanding wholeness.

Since 2013, I've actively walked the path of sacred medicine. I've supported hundreds of psilocybin and MDMA journeys for individuals, couples, and groups, trained under Indigenous wisdom keepers, and cultivated a practice where clients feel safe, seen, and deeply held. My work centers on guiding personal and relational breakthroughs, relationships that often last years, rooted in care, trust, and soul-level transformation.

Today, I serve as a psychedelic minister, trauma-informed guide, and integration coach. My practice blends ancestral ceremony, somatic work, and nature-led modalities with modern tools like encrypted communication, biofeedback, and AI-enhanced reflection. Clients receive comprehensive preparation, detailed integration plans, and HIPAA-secure support, all grounded in informed consent, spiritual autonomy, and harm reduction. I offer flexible pricing rooted in trust, and I'm proud to say that no one has ever been turned away due to financial constraints.

I'm currently based in the Phoenix, Arizona, region and travel often for work, returning to communities throughout New England with frequent visits to Maine, Massachusetts, and New York City. Some travel to work with me; others I meet where they are. My preference is for us to travel to a neutral special destination for a private retreat, either domestic or international.

Beyond one-on-one work, I contribute to the field through mentorship, public education, and policy advocacy, consulting with organizations and supporting safe access for all. I serve not just as a guide, but as a mirror, mentor, and bridge for those walking the sacred path of return.

I don't serve from perfection. I serve from practice. What grounds me isn't what I know, but my willingness to stay, to listen, and to meet each person with reverence. My calling is to evoke what is already alive in you, to walk beside you, not ahead.

Because the life you long for isn't found by becoming someone else. It's remembered by coming home to who you've always been.

From my heart to yours, 

Yeshua Adonai

Psychedelic Guide

What I Write About

Every Monday, I publish a new post. I write about what shaped me and what I'm still learning. War, ceremony, shame, grief, consciousness, forgiveness, nature, the body, the medicines, and the quiet work of becoming more honest. Some posts are practical. Some are personal. Most are both.

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Let’s Begin Your Journey

This path is about embodied transformation, not fleeting peak experiences.

If you feel resonance, I invite you to check out my offerings, or book a no-pressure discovery call to explore what may be possible together, or reach out through the contact page with any questions.

Wherever you are on your journey, may it be guided by clarity, courage, and compassion.