“Change outside requires change inside”
I want to extend a warm welcome to you. If you’ve found yourself here, I imagine you are seeking something—a new perspective, a sense of clarity, or perhaps a path forward through uncertainty. I know that search well.
Life is a dance of dynamic equilibrium—a continual balancing of structure and flow, struggle and grace, the known and the mysterious. I have lived across the full spectrum of experience—from combat zones to diplomatic negotiations, espionage to solitude in the wildness and monasteries, from leading organizations to losing everything. These contrasts have shaped the spectrum of my understanding of transformation—not as a single moment, but as an ongoing process of continual tension and harmony, structure and surrender.
I committed myself to personal and spiritual development, searching for purpose and clarity, yet struggling under the weight of cPTSD, treatment-resistant depression, and severe anxiety. For years, I was trapped in cycles of isolation, self-doubt, and a profound disconnection from life itself. Despite the achievements of my past—serving as a U.S. Marine combat veteran, intelligence officer, diplomat, and organizational leader—I remained lost. I carried shame, anger, and loneliness, navigating the world with a hardened exterior, yet internally feeling empty.
Something within me refused to stay silent—a quiet but insistent pull to look inward, to question, to remember. My path instilled a discipline for excellence, and for a time, I believed it would lead to happiness—but I came to realize that achievement without inner alignment only deepened the emptiness I was trying to outrun.
These years brought a reckoning with childhood shame, moral confusion, and the early effects of trauma from combat and the mental strain of espionage. I began confronting paternal wounds, reconnecting with my inner child, and learning how to self-reflect, self-direct, and self-manage through confusion and pressure. In the later part of this decade, I experienced the onset of an identity and existential crisis—a growing dissonance between who I had become and who I sensed I was called to be.
The pain I carried became one of the most important teachers I began to slow down and listen to. These years laid the foundation for something more honest and enduring.
Instead of resisting, I turned toward it. I became an avid psychonaut, immersing myself in guided psychedelic practice to unravel my conditioning, heal from the inside out, and explore the deeper truths of existence. I spent thousands of hours meditating, immersed myself in the wilderness, and surrendered to practices that required me to confront my deepest fears and dissolve long-held illusions.
This decade became a crucible of growth—shaped by mentorship, apprenticeship, and the steady mirror of peer accountability. I wasn’t just learning anymore; I was applying, testing, and integrating. The insights that once lived in ceremony were now being walked into my relationships, leadership, and service.
Behind the scenes, I faced some of my darkest nights. I experienced homelessness, spiraled through mental illness, and watched my marriage unravel following an affair. I endured the pain of divorce, the pressure of overwork as an organizational leader, and the financial collapse that came from desperately trying to escape a life I no longer aligned with. The paranoia from years in diplomacy overseas and the emotional remnants of combat trauma followed me into civilian life.
I lived the victim until I learned to reclaim my agency. The identity crisis that had emerged years before deepened before it began to transform, guiding me to rediscover my values and rebuild my moral compass from within.
And yet, through it all, something deeper was being revealed. What once felt like unbearable suffering became my greatest teacher, shaping the way I now see the world—with reverence, curiosity, and an unwavering appreciation for the resilience of the human spirit. I discovered that just as the world itself is in a constant state of tension and harmony, so too are we—navigating the interplay between structure and surrender, effort and ease, knowing and mystery.
Healing doesn’t come from escaping the past—it comes from making peace with it, transforming it, and realizing that our deepest suffering often shapes the most unique gifts we’re here to give.
I stand fully in my purpose, answering a calling that has grown louder with each passing year. But the path has been far from linear—it's been marked by uncertainty, change, and an ever-deepening invitation to surrender. To walk this path has meant refining my integrity, facing my unconscious patterns, and learning to trust something deeper than logic alone.
This phase of life hasn’t brought resolution, but a more honest relationship with the unknown. Answering a calling isn’t a single decision—it’s a lifelong commitment to showing up. I’ve had to learn how to listen when it’s easier to speak, to stay grounded when it's tempting to run, and to lead with heart in a world that often rewards avoidance.
Each day asks me to be more grounded, more real, and more present. I continue to cultivate presence—not as performance, but as devotion—and to show up with humility in every space I’m invited into.
The real work isn’t about knowing more—it’s about loving better. The struggles of my earlier years—forgetting I’m enough, falling into habital automatic thinking—have not disappeared. But I meet them now with clarity and compassion, waking up repeatedly, no longer as obstacles, but as allies in my continued becoming.
Today, I support others through their own transformational journeys. As a full-time psychedelic guide, social entrepreneur, and integration coach, I help clients navigate thresholds of growth—whether they’re high-performing professionals, spiritual seekers, or those in transition. Over the decades, I’ve coached thousands of clients, and since 2022, I’ve facilitated hundreds of intentional psilocybin experiences, all grounded in harm reduction, reverence, and responsible use. My work is anchored in a lifelong commitment to truth, freedom, and authenticity—principles that guide interaction and offering.
With over a decade of dedicated practice as a diligent psychonaut, I’ve been guided through more than a hundred ceremonial psychedelic experiences myself—deepening my understanding across a diverse range of substances, lineages, and traditions. These journeys have taught me that true healing isn’t about fixing what’s broken, but remembering what’s always been whole beneath the layers of forgetting. Having lived abroad in the Middle East, Europe, and across North America, I’ve worked with people from all walks of life. Now based in Portland, Maine—a city that has decriminalized plant medicines—I travel to clients or welcome them here for their journeys.
My approach blends the structured discipline of my past with the expansive, heart-centered wisdom of lived experience. Every session or ceremony includes a personalized action plan to ensure insights are embodied, not just remembered. Clients often say they feel deeply seen—more clearly than ever before, walking away with clarity, purpose, and a renewed sense of self.
The journey continues. I remain a student—learning to listen more deeply, to care more honestly, and to serve more humbly. Because transformation isn’t a goal. It’s a way of being.
If you’re feeling called to explore this work, I invite you to book a complimentary 20-minute Discovery Call. During our conversation, I’ll share insights into my approach and answer any questions you may have. As part of this call, you’ll also receive a comprehensive harm reduction and education package, including key resources, preparation guidance, and tools to help you navigate your path with clarity and intention—whether you choose to work with me or not.
This is an opportunity to gain deeper insight into safe and intentional psychedelic work, explore how this process might support your life, and take the first step toward meaningful transformation in this unique way.
If any of this resonates, I invite you to explore more. You can read about my journey in greater depth on my about me page, review offerings, or browse testimonials to learn more.
Whatever path you’re on, I honor your search. Life is precious, and every moment is an invitation to step closer to who we are meant to be.
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From My Heart to Yours,
Yeshua Adonai
Psychedelic Guide
aboutyeshua.com
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“Healing & happiness unfolds when we are engaged in serving our community.”
As a health coach and psychedelic guide, I facilitate transformative experiences fostering healing, personal growth, and spiritual connection. With over a decade of experience, I’ve guided hundreds through safe and integrative journeys. My approach combines coaching, energy work, meditation, and responsibly guided psychedelic ceremonial programs, rooted in harm reduction, integration, and safe practice within the evolving psychedelic renaissance. [visit, offerings]
Led a team of 30+ international staff to serve thousands of customers and develop self-regulation with our mental health biofeedback device and through our health coaching program. Psychiatrists prescribe Lief as an alternative to antidepressants, and it is insurance-reimbursable and distributed throughout CVS stores nationally. [visit, getlief.com]
Designed and facilitated innovation programs for senior executives visiting Silicon Valley’s brightest minds at locations like Microsoft, Salesforce, and IDEO. Topics varied from Future of Healthcare, Future of Work, Organizational Development, Biomimicry, & Regenerative Leadership. [visit nexxworks.com]
Expanded Australian corporation into N. America markets enabling architectural teams to see and edit their designs in real-time in Virtual Reality (VR) & Augmented Reality (AR). [visit, vection-technologies.com]
Consulted on the system architecture, advised program rollout, and facilitated CHHS Open Data Portal hackathons to catalyze innovation in public health within the entrepreneur community in Sacramento, California. [visit, data.chhs.ca.gov]
I co-facilitated, advised, and consulted a team of 27 diverse stakeholders to develop a 250,000 sq/ft and $130M building in Mountain View, California. Proud to integrate native stories and Biophilic principles within the design and align the team to commit to a Living Building. [visit the project report]
Instigated, designed, & facilitated a systemic mindfulness and meditation program at Facebook HQ in Menlo Park for hundreds of their employees over nine months. [visit, Facebook’s FaceYourself meditation program]
Coordinated The Regenerative Practitioner (TRP) Series with Regenesis for the San Francisco Bay Area for a hundred students. [visit, regenerat.es]
I was hired by a client, an international non-profit, to find alignment among Sioux tribes at Standing Rock and relevant organizational leaders on how best to administer the $1M in funding I advised them to raise. [visit, unify.org]
Partnered with the local mayors office and hundreds of sustainability leaders to develop a nonprofit dedicated to transform the Sacramento Metropolitan Area into the greenest region in the United States. [visit, ssf2.org]
Led business development, strategy, and implementation of rapid international expansion for 100+ iOS and Android mobile apps, resulting in global networks and $1M+ in sales. [visit, appbaker]
A decorated combat veteran with 8-years of service, including time at war in Iraq and as a Staff Sergeant non-commissioned officer leading teams from a few to hundreds of Marines on challenging missions with limited resources. [visit, marines.mil]
Held a Top Secret Clearance - directed Marine Detachments (teams 6 to 28 staff) providing security and protection for U.S. Embassies in St Petersburg, Russia, Berlin, Germany, and Nicosia, Cyprus. [visit, state.gov]
Proud papa of two remarkable babies - devoted to working on initiatives that create a more harmonious, balanced, and caring world for them.
I diligently invested the last 15-years into various meditation & mindfulness practices to get to know myself, self-regulate and live peacefully. The spiritual teachers most influenced my thinking and being are George Gurdjieff, Thích Nhất Hạnh, and Paramahansa Yogananda.
Holding space for other Men and being held in vulnerability, accountability, and active caring is integral to living a full life [reference David Deida's philosophy, which is an inspiration within our work].
I’m passionate about partnering with ecologists and applying permaculture principles to support us learn from natures genius to more effectively collaborate, innovate, and build community. [For more info]
I found my tribe, first discovered medicine, and deeply resonated with the principles, and some of my most magical experiences took place during the years I’ve been blessed to participate. [For more info about Burning Man’s 10 principles]
As a volunteer, I saw potential in the founders early on by creating financial footing for the organization from coalescing stakeholders and capital, catalyzing their emergence as a thriving community with a $75M+ annual budget. [For more information about Team Rubicon]
As a volunteer I co-organized an event with 750 attendees and 18 TEDx solan events through corporate sponsorships, major gifts, and event ticket sales. Also, co-developed original TEDx toolkit which became adopted by TEDx for thousands of events. [For more information on TEDx]
Assisting with local initiatives that support HHPs mission to build a healing community that helps veterans suffering from military trauma recover and thrive by providing them with safe, supervised access to psychedelic treatments, professional coaching, and ongoing peer support [consider donating to HHP.]
He was really well organized and richly informative, with a very well thought out program that takes you by the hand before and after the coaching experience.
My coach, Yeshua, was great with me during the preparation weeks, knew from experience how to prepare for creating a shift in my life, and planned all the many minute details to ensure I would be totally at ease and available for the experience ahead of me. He provided incredible caring and loving support (he worked hard), always present to my needs, comfort, safety and optimal level of experience. We talked for four hours, that day of the ceremony after the dream state. It was not easy; I was fighting him back because I wanted to rest instead of talking, but with the proper balance of firmness and kind explanations as to why we should talk during that phase of plasticity of the experience (a rare opportunity!), my guide astutely created the opening for me to explore past trauma and help me discover inner truths.
Through his expert guidance and perseverance, we were able to identify a fundamental knot in my personality, and he offered a process to integrate it rather than judge it, which allowed me to grow significantly as a person. Because my guide was so well versed in the art of healing and its process, in the human psyche, in spirituality, I was able to see and let go of burdens that had accumulated for over fifty years. The next day (he was very generous with his time), he also explained that I was facing an uphill process to clear my sky of grey clouds, and offered support there too, as well as during the integration weeks. I will always be grateful for his masterly guidance. You just can't buy this bodhisattva level of dedication and care.
I am a 68-year-old, single, semi-retired male psychiatrist struggling with chronic depression and ongoing cancer treatment who had the pleasure of working with Yeshua via two coaching programs.
From the start, I was very impressed with Yeshua’s fund of knowledge about change process, attention to detail, and compassion for his life’s work helping others. He listened to my intentions and concerns, answered questions honestly, and was open about his experiences.
Yeshua was attentive and thoughtful about providing reassurance and comfort, frequently checking in with me and occasionally offering guidance. Yeshua’s soothing presence and loving nature allowed me to overcome anxiety and trust the process of positive change.
He provided detailed observations and feedback about what he heard and observed. Yeshua’s comments were consistently uplifting and inspirational, sometimes guiding me to reframe my assumptions, perseverations, and fears positively. As a result, I have found an inner calmness and self-acceptance despite the challenges of my current life. I would recommend Yeshua without reservation.
I am a 66-year-old woman and retired attorney, and I have practiced qigong, Taiji, and qi healing for over 27 years, studying Daoism, Buddhism, meditation, and spirituality. I have been blessed with a wonderful life, family, friends, students, and clients. I was inspired to work with Yeshua to deepen my spiritual practices. I desired to go deep inside myself and to listen – for guidance and wisdom and to hear the voice of God.
As I began working with Yeshua, I was immediately impressed with his preparation, organization, knowledge, experience, and understanding. He answered all of my questions, and we discussed my concerns and how he could support me.
I completely trusted Yeshua and the process. It was done with love, thoughtfulness, and wisdom. He guided me through a rocky beginning when I was feeling uncomfortable. He also helped guide parts of the journey through insightful questions and reminders of my intentions.
The journey itself was awe-inspiring and profound. My experience was deeply personal and spiritual, and the wisdom imparted and the love and compassion I felt have continued to inspire and deepen my spiritual life. The two follow-up sessions with Yeshua were influential in reminding me of specific aspects of the journey and how to integrate those aspects into my life.
Yeshua’s heart is full of love, compassion, and understanding; he was a trustworthy guide in this experience with me. I look forward to working with Yeshua again in the future.
I found Yeshua after a long and difficult journey with Complex PTSD that came to a head after a personal tragedy. For decades, I've struggled with the effects of adverse childhood experiences from being raised in a dysfunctional family system that brought faulty coping mechanisms into my life which did not benefit me as an adult. When I lost my only child in a murder-suicide just before the COVID-19 lockdown and began caring for my immunocompromised infant grandchild they left behind I was completely exhausted and overwhelmed with no path to mourn or heal. Telehealth appointments hadn't come to fruition at that point and I was on my own. There were extremely limited in-person support services available.
I forced myself to keep going through the days, weeks, and years of anguish during the pandemic. I white-knuckled my way through the depression, anxiety, and horror of what had happened with little to no help from the medications and ineffective therapies that the doctors at the VA had to offer. I wondered what was wrong with me and why nothing was helping. I had taken medication for depression in the past with limited success, now it only seemed to make things worse. I had gone to therapy off and on for 30+ years and while most of the professionals who I worked with were very nice and meant well, I only seemed to get so far before coming to a dead end, where I had talked myself out but there just seemed to be no way of moving forward.
I read several articles about how natural medicines were being used for PTSD and requested that type of therapy from the VA. I was told I didn't qualify because I hadn't "exhausted all other options", meaning I hadn't tried all the antidepressants. I didn't want to take them because at that point, they were causing suicidal ideation and I had a child to care for who needed me. I felt like I was living in a nightmare. Many times I went to bed and hoped I would not wake up. I found an online veteran's support group geared toward psychedelics and messaged some of the people in it for assistance, but because they didn't know me personally, they were reluctant to take a chance on me. I didn't get the help I needed.
I discovered Yeshua online and at that point, desperate for relief from my agony, I contacted him. He returned my call immediately. He listened, he gently questioned, and he took a great deal of care to assure me he was going to do everything he could to help. He even took me through a guided meditation to calm my dysregulated nervous system. It was the first time in years I felt soothed. His demeanor was calm and comforting. He scheduled some preparatory calls with me to plan how we would proceed. His professionalism is impressive. The health intake forms leave no stone uncovered. The legal hurdles were explained and dealt with honestly. He made sure everyone involved would be protected. I noticed our time together decreased my hypervigilance to a much more manageable level. I felt much calmer and able to function better in my daily life.
I made more progress working with Yeshua than in 30+ years of therapy. Issues came up and seemed to work themselves out in front of me while I observed. I talked a lot during our time, and Yeshua took notes in a journal he brought along for me so we could go over it afterward. At one point in the very beginning, I had some anxiety from some of the physical sensations I was feeling. Yeshua guided me through with breathwork, and it subsided within moments. I felt safe and cared for the entire time.
We discussed my experience and how I would integrate it into my life. He offered food and drink, and some supplements to make sure I wouldn't have any unpleasant next-day physical issues -which I didn't. He encouraged me to rest, journal, and discuss in therapy what I learned. He gave me a check-in call the next day to make sure I was doing well, which I was. I was still "blissed out", but full of love and joy. Two days later, I still had an elevated, happy mood. I went to the grocery store and instead of irritation and dread, I saw beautiful humanity in every face. Yes, it IS that good. My "comedown" was gentle easy and enjoyable. The effects are lasting. It was like someone did a hard reset of my brain. I hadn't experienced joy in so long that I thought I never would again. If you are in the same situation you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. My relationships are healing, my heart is healing, and my mental health has improved dramatically. Yeshua scheduled several follow-up integration calls to discuss my progress and make helpful suggestions.
I would recommend Yeshua without hesitation. His professionalism, meticulous attention to detail, calm and caring attentiveness, and knowledge give me confidence in him that is rare indeed. His ethical standards are beyond reproach. He is a warm and caring individual, genuine and full of lovingkindness. There are not enough superlatives to describe how grateful I am to him for literally saving my life and giving me hope for the future.
Working with Yeshua was a great experience and one I look forward to doing every year. I have depression and I was struggling for 18 months prior to connecting with Yeshua. I was tired of the medication roller coaster. I needed a better way. I followed the clinic trials with natural medicines but things were moving too slowly. I needed help but I needed someone I could trust to facilitate the journey and provide it in a professional way. I found everything I needed in Yeshua. I was able to let down my guard and let the life take me to wherever it wanted to go. He showed me how to be more spiritual and take time to reflect during the day. As Legendary Coach Jim Valvano said “If you can laugh, you cry and you think that’s a full day, a heck of a day”. That explains my time with Yeshua. Since then, I haven’t taken any medication and I’m feeling a lot better.
I had an amazing experience with Yeshua, from our first conversation through the end of our time together. He's a gentle soul with a fascinating life story, someone who offers a wide range of knowledge, life experiences and wisdom. He is also a master of facilitating change, with deep personal experience and knowledge of both the latest scientific research and the wisdom of indigenous spiritual traditions. Highly recommended.
I feel so incredibly fortunate to have found Yeshua as a coach on my journey of healing and insight. In advance of my experience, he took time to get to know me, my life’s roadmap and my intentions.
I held a lot of fear regarding what this unknown time would be like as well as uncertainty about what would unfold. Yeshua provided the wise, compassionate bedrock upon which I could depend. His wealth of experience guiding many others like me allowed for a deep level of trust and comfort.
Looking back, I am incredibly impressed by his discernment during the experience. He knew when to sit back in genuine presence with me to allow uncertainty to be the teacher when to point out guideposts to give reassurance and calm my doubt & fear, and when to give me a healthy, supportive nudge to lean into the work.
Yeshua’s care and compassion are abundant. Our time felt sacred. My experience with Yeshua was one of the most meaningful and transformative experiences of my life.
After the day of transformation, Yeshua offered multiple support sessions, which helped me to put my insight into practice and ‘live the learnings’.
I will forever be filled with gratitude for the healing and wisdom brought into my life and to Yeshua for his invaluable loving and compassionate guidance.
I started working with Yeshua in 2023 as a healing gift to myself. The prior four years had brought an incredible amount of devastation on all fronts – physical, emotional, spiritual, mental, financial, career, home, relationship, and family. I had spent an intensive year of healing doing ALL the things: medical care, chiropractic, acupuncture, therapy, journaling, yoga and strength training, prayer and meditation; rested and nurtured my soul; rebuilt my home and career; and loved on my kids. I was embracing the beautiful opportunity for a do-over in life while having to acknowledge lingering trauma symptoms. The opportunity to work with Yeshua presented simultaneously that I began questioning how to move forward into whatever is next. Had I done all of the work I was asked to do? Did I miss anything? I was hesitant to step into an unknown new life, but my heart was ready for the deep dive.
Yeshua and I met for several preparatory sessions six weeks before the journey day. As a healthcare provider, I was immediately impressed by the medical intake and screenings, confidentiality, education, structure, and organization. The change began at the first preparatory session, as my story was heard and questions were offered to clarify my intention.
The meditation space was beautiful and sacred, and our time was honored. Boundaries and safety were communicated, and I hadn’t realized how important that was for me until the words were spoken. I felt respected and protected throughout this journey, even in my most vulnerable moments. Yeshua held the most grounded, calming space while knowing when to offer a moment of humor or reassurance. Laughter and tears. It was such a gift to have someone remain so present and solid, allowing me to untether my soul and transition through many layers of healing. It was intense and emotional, somatic and spiritual. Integration was infused with patience, presence, and affirmation. The following sessions served to integrate further and connect what I learned to my current reality. Several months later, I am still reflecting and learning. Any remaining trauma symptoms have entirely resolved. I celebrated my healing from the last several years, acknowledged so many transitions, and crossed the threshold into my next story. I finally feel present in my life again, peaceful, happy, and whole. I am deeply grateful to Yeshua for bearing witness to my journey.
I'm 50 years of age, and after working for decades at a job that felt wrong for me, I have been developing a 2nd career with a freelance sales and marketing business. I've been struggling with focus in my business and felt stuck trying to reach personal and professional goals. Having experienced a financial crisis in the transition, my confidence in providing a good living for my family was shaky.
I'm experienced in altered states and self-guided experiences. I knew the potential was for deep insight and guidance, but I had trouble creating the right set and setting to sail as far as I felt I needed into the unknown. It was a challenge justifying taking the time away from work and family, but I felt stuck in a loop of constant striving with little forward movement. I longed for a more profound experience to challenge my beliefs, shine a light on stuck energy, and identify what's true in my life.
With Yeshua's help, that's what I got. Ultimately, I understood my life experience, the people around me, and my relationship with my work. Yeshua provided a skilled questioning model and demonstrated a heart-centered empathy concerning my life story. I felt genuinely comfortable, safe, and supported while processing life experiences and aspirations and identifying areas of importance in my growth journey. Yeshua was an excellent guide to help navigate stuck emotions and work through hidden trauma.
I returned feeling much lighter and happier with a collection of tools to apply to areas I'm committed to improving. I would recommend Yeshua's guidance for both experienced and inexperienced travelers. Yeshuas' empathy, experience, and guidance can help countless people get the most value from their life.
I recently had the opportunity to work with Yeshua in a three part healing treatment, which has been the first truly effective breakthrough in a lifetime of treatment resistant depression.
Yeshua was very thoughtful and knowledgeable in his approach. He provided skilled advice as to how to administer for my first time and we worked up to more significant intensity so that issues from PTSD would not be exacerbated but rather gently brought to the fore. I was keen to jump in deep and appreciate Yeshua’s counsel as I see now how this was the right approach.
I have done close to twenty years of talk therapy, taken just about every medication, had ketamine infusions, all with little to no results. In these three sessions with Yeshua, I was able to release decades of self-reproach and guilt, and came to terms with events of the past which had otherwise had me in a listless state of existence.
These sessions got me unstuck so that I could make peace with and see the parts of myself that I had been loath to accept and that I used to keep myself hidden from others. We unravelled decades of shame. My personal history was repurposed to serve rather than be used to criticize, berate, and limit myself with.
To appropriately frame where I am now, I share that these three meditation retreats didn't 'fix' me, rather they gave me a point of access to be able to get out of my own way and start being better, kinder, and gentler with myself. I am finally in motion living, dare I say loving, myself and my life. I don’t know if I have ever been able in my 51 years to say that.
For the first time, I am experiencing that I am enough and am free to just be. That may not seem like such a big deal, but if you’ve never felt this way, you’ll know it’s huge. Letting go of the constant albatrosses of pretending, hiding, judging, feeling less than, is all I have ever wanted, and here I am.
To call Yeshua simply a guide is an understatement. He is a healer. There were times during my more inward journeys that I needed help, and when I came to open my eyes to ask for him, saw he was already there with the highest level of presence and attunement to my process. Yeshua was working with deep energies, extracting things from me, protecting me, and calibrating my internal physical condition. As someone formerly skeptical of these sorts of notions, all I can say, is that now I am removed of doubt and I feel**** blessed**** that I was accompanied on this journey not by a person who just sat with me, but a consummate steward of all domains within this realm of experience.
Another the key components of our work were the integration sessions. Honestly, I had hoped to bypass this part, that the natural medicine would be enough but see now that the natural medicine is what helped me get the coconut to fall from the tree, integration was where I could find the tools to eat the fruit.
These conversations were critical, and in this regard Yeshua was extremely skilled. He posed thought provoking questions, provided astute insight, and listened with uncompromising focus and patience. His commitment to my ‘arrival’ into new understandings was unparalleled to any other experience of listening I’ve had in my life.
I had been looking for someone to work with since 2019 where my depression had reached an extremely difficult point. It was so hard to find someone. My dearest friend came to cross paths with Yeshua and introduced us. As I reflect on all the years of seeking a facilitator, I believe it was intended for me to meet Yeshua and receive his support.
Yeshua is impeccable in every way. He works at the highest level of integrity. He is safe. He is an excellent communicator. His ability to hold space is tremendous. He is compassionate, altruistic, wise, a true medicine carrier. The work Yeshua and I did together has forever altered the course of how I will go forward and I can’t thank him enough for helping me get my spirit and life back.
From every fiber of my existence, I extend my deepest gratitude for his care and facilitation in my healing.
I returned to natural medicine after not using for several decades. My main motivation was to break an alcohol habit that was slowly destroying my life. I also needed to regenerate myself spiritually. Working solo was helpful, but it was working with Yeshua and the group sessions he set up that really accelerated my health and spiritual recovery. I’m happy to report that I have been alcohol-free for more than six months since my first experience with Yeshua, and I no longer need to take medication for hypertension. I also feel spiritually renewed. I can’t thank Yeshua enough, he’s kind and gentle, but he accurately calls you out on your bullshit in a nice way!
I turned to natural medicine to seek healing from a life-long binge eating disorder that stemmed from childhood trauma and neglect. I have tried many other modes of therapy, and a number of therapists. While they all helped somewhat, nothing has been as profoundly transformative or worked as quickly. Since my first ceremony 3 months ago, I have only experienced one food craving, which I was easily able to intercept. For most of my life, I binged 3 or more times per week and felt completely powerless to stop. To me, the amount of healing I’ve experienced feels truly miraculous.
Some unexpected side benefits include more joy, peace, love, creativity; more connection with my body, God, nature, and other people; better sleep; and better focus and joy in my work. I am in awe of the power of these tools to change deeply rooted patterns and lift the spirit.
I am so grateful to have had Yeshua’s support and guidance through this process. I don’t have family and friends who have hese types of experiences, and simply having someone to talk to who understands what it’s like would have been more than enough. Yeshua offered that and so much more—books and resources to read, spiritual practices to try, thought-provoking questions, help interpreting and unpacking some of my experiences—all offered with great wisdom, empathy, and insight.
Yeshua described his own spiritual journey as “rabid devotion” to finding answers and healing for himself. It is clear that he brings that level of devotion to his clients as well.
Earlier this year, I had the great fortune of experiencing a solo, sacred ceremony with Yeshua Adonai. I had a very powerful experience, full of rich imagery and symbolism. Yeshua helped me to document the important messages I was receiving, which allowed us to process what had shown up later. In this same session, I accessed some deeply stored grief about my family and my spouse. I ended up crying and releasing for hours, and he sat by my side as a completely grounded presence, offered me lots of tissues, and had zero judgment. He knew when to let me emote and when to ask questions. He also asked me if I wanted to stay with the grief, if I felt it was useful, or if I felt stuck in it. He clarified the usefulness and necessity of grieving, so we stayed with it. I recognized his skillfulness and ability to stay present and attuned to me, which helped me to feel completely safe. After this session, I felt so incredibly clear and freed up. Yeshua prompted me with useful questions about making positive changes in my life to help me integrate the information I received. I highly recommend Yeshua and applaud him for his knowledge base, dedication to this work, sensitivity, and strength.
I'm a 37-year-old female with PTSD, anxiety, and depression who has been struggling with my physical health for a couple of years. My life was out of balance in almost every way despite continuously rising in my career. The ocean between how I felt inside and how the world perceived me was vast, and I had lost the confidence that I would find my way home, to peace within myself, and cultivate love for others. Everything felt like abuse, and I was in a constant trauma response. It seemed many things in my life weren't serving me, and several things pointed me toward Yeshua.
My journey with Yeshua was beautiful, and I felt safe, supported, and unjudged. The integration work, resources, and additional tools that Yeshua provides have significantly impacted my experience and outcomes. As a first-timer, feeling that Yeshua was there as an available and open-minded resource provided peace of mind.
My relationship with myself, my loved ones, and the world has improved in the short time since my journey. I have hope and confidence and feel I can receive and give more love and kindness than I have in a long time. My body and mind feel lighter, and my desire to be with people has been re-established. This has been the most impactful experience of my life so far, and I'm grateful to have Yeshua as my guide.
Yeshua and I connected through a mutual friend when I was experiencing some of my lowest lows and needed help. I took a chance with him, which has opened up a perspective on healing I never could have imagined. Yeshua has authentic, strong, kind energy that encourages openness and healing for all genders and backgrounds. He is devoted and passionate about this space he is creating, and I am thrilled to hear more people are entering this space with an open mind. This type of therapy will be a part of my life forever.
Yeshua Adonai showed up and was genuinely accepting of me where I was, and listened to my lived experience with kindness and curiosity. Before the meditation ceremony, he set clear boundaries around what was and was not okay during the journey, and set clear expectations around his own behaviour up-front as well. It was clear this was something that he had done many times and had significant experience with...I really appreciated how Yeshua handled my discomfort and didn't attempt to push anything beyond my comfort levels.
Yeshua and I have partnered on several consulting projects -- including Facebook, Roche, and others. I've always experienced Yeshua as a resourceful, diligent, and super hard-working partner and creative professional who, when taking on something, owns it end to end, someone I could rely on fully. Yeshua's ability to connect with people and build trusting and enduring relationships is second to none, which is a great asset in any work challenge, especially one requiring collaboration.
Yeshua is an incredible innovator and creative thinker. He's helped me frame/think through business challenges from multiple areas. I found him to be an excellent thought partner as well. I appreciate your approach with innovation tours and challenging me/the team to think differently. Thank you, Yeshua!
I have been working with Yeshua, who organized for my team an inspiring Tour with Nexxwork in SF bay. It was an amazing experience, and I must say that Yeshua is a humble leader with a huge network and great values.
I highly recommend my friend Yeshua Adonai for change management work. Yeshua is a very energetic young man, capable of great contributions. He is deeply informed on living systems thinking, so he engages his clients and their ecosystems in ways that will reveal the evolutionary pathways open to them as they consider and chart their futures. He is upbeat and a strong team player, if you are wondering about how to understand and develop strategies for the future of your organization, working with Yeshua would be a great choice for you to consider.
Yeshua was an absolute pro, and we felt safe in his hands. As well as providing expert knowledge, and good ideas, he was extremely personable and an absolute gentleman. Albeit too briefly, a pleasure to work with.
In current times where volatility, ambiguity, complexity, and uncertainty are on the rise, there is a lot of talk about agile, creative & innovative organizations and regenerative leadership. Yet few people comprehend the depth of the transition required to build agile and successful teams. Yeshua is a rare talent who understands the systemic transformation needed to build future-proof organizations. As a former US Marine turned regenerative practitioner, Yeshua is the walking proof of what is possible when we unlock the hidden potential that resides in each of us. He is a visionary social architect and brilliant facilitator of social innovation processes. Our collaborations have left me richer in many different ways.
Yeshua approached me after a TED talk that I gave and pledged to help my organization, Team Rubicon, raise $50,000 for a mission to South Sudan. Within weeks he had organized a motivated team, and he delivered on his promise--throwing an incredible fundraiser/benefit at an incredible private home in La Jolla. The evening was powerful and a great success, and we owe it all to the hard work, motivation and inspiration of Yeshua.
Yeshua is an incredible systems thinker grounded in the principles of regenerative practices; he brings this framing into all of his professional and non-professional interactions. He is comprehensive in his approach to all situations and can bring a synthesis of ideas to the table.
Yeshua is a solid person. He helped our organization navigate through some rough waters with integrity and strength. He is committed to achieving results and cares deeply about his work. Yeshua is trust worthy and works hard.
Yeshua worked with the Regenesis Institute for Regenerative Practice in 2018 and 2019 on organizing and outreach for the launch of The Regenerative Practitioner series as a pathway to establishing a regenerative community of practitioners in the Bay Area. He focuses enormous energy and will on initiatives he takes on and is comfortable in reaching out to and engaging wide range of people and groups in support of them.
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