I recently had the opportunity to work with Yeshua in a three part healing treatment, which has been the first truly effective breakthrough in a lifetime of treatment resistant depression.
Yeshua was very thoughtful and knowledgeable in his approach. He provided skilled advice as to how to administer for my first time and we worked up to more significant intensity so that issues from PTSD would not be exacerbated but rather gently brought to the fore. I was keen to jump in deep and appreciate Yeshua’s counsel as I see now how this was the right approach.
I have done close to twenty years of talk therapy, taken just about every medication, had ketamine infusions, all with little to no results. In these three sessions with Yeshua, I was able to release decades of self-reproach and guilt, and came to terms with events of the past which had otherwise had me in a listless state of existence.
These sessions got me unstuck so that I could make peace with and see the parts of myself that I had been loath to accept and that I used to keep myself hidden from others. We unravelled decades of shame. My personal history was repurposed to serve rather than be used to criticize, berate, and limit myself with.
To appropriately frame where I am now, I share that these three meditation retreats didn't 'fix' me, rather they gave me a point of access to be able to get out of my own way and start being better, kinder, and gentler with myself. I am finally in motion living, dare I say loving, myself and my life. I don’t know if I have ever been able in my 51 years to say that.
For the first time, I am experiencing that I am enough and am free to just be. That may not seem like such a big deal, but if you’ve never felt this way, you’ll know it’s huge. Letting go of the constant albatrosses of pretending, hiding, judging, feeling less than, is all I have ever wanted, and here I am.
To call Yeshua simply a guide is an understatement. He is a healer. There were times during my more inward journeys that I needed help, and when I came to open my eyes to ask for him, saw he was already there with the highest level of presence and attunement to my process. Yeshua was working with deep energies, extracting things from me, protecting me, and calibrating my internal physical condition. As someone formerly skeptical of these sorts of notions, all I can say, is that now I am removed of doubt and I feel**** blessed**** that I was accompanied on this journey not by a person who just sat with me, but a consummate steward of all domains within this realm of experience.
Another the key components of our work were the integration sessions. Honestly, I had hoped to bypass this part, that the natural medicine would be enough but see now that the natural medicine is what helped me get the coconut to fall from the tree, integration was where I could find the tools to eat the fruit.
These conversations were critical, and in this regard Yeshua was extremely skilled. He posed thought provoking questions, provided astute insight, and listened with uncompromising focus and patience. His commitment to my ‘arrival’ into new understandings was unparalleled to any other experience of listening I’ve had in my life.
I had been looking for someone to work with since 2019 where my depression had reached an extremely difficult point. It was so hard to find someone. My dearest friend came to cross paths with Yeshua and introduced us. As I reflect on all the years of seeking a facilitator, I believe it was intended for me to meet Yeshua and receive his support.
Yeshua is impeccable in every way. He works at the highest level of integrity. He is safe. He is an excellent communicator. His ability to hold space is tremendous. He is compassionate, altruistic, wise, a true medicine carrier. The work Yeshua and I did together has forever altered the course of how I will go forward and I can’t thank him enough for helping me get my spirit and life back.
From every fiber of my existence, I extend my deepest gratitude for his care and facilitation in my healing.