“Change outside requires change inside”
There comes a moment, quiet or cataclysmic, when the life you’ve built no longer fits. A whisper rises: “Is there more than this?”
I’ve crossed that threshold as a Marine Corps Staff Sergeant, shattered by war, a father cracked open by love and grief, a seeker initiated by fire, silence, and Mystery.
My healing didn’t come from one path. It came through many: ceremony, nature, parenting, meditation, therapy, and a long walk through darkness. Psychedelic experiences were one among many modalities that helped me find my way back, after years of living with complex PTSD, treatment-resistant depression, and severe anxiety.
I also know the world of leadership and achievement. I’ve served across the military, U.S. government, purpose-driven nonprofits, global corporations, and Silicon Valley startups, guiding transformation at scale. But it was life’s unraveling, not its accolades, that taught me how to walk beside others with presence and humility.
I’m based in Portland, Maine, a decriminalized region where sacred work can unfold safely. Some travel to work with me; others I meet where they are. In either case, we co-create containers rooted in reverence, trauma-informed care, harm reduction, and soul-level trust.
As a full-time psychedelic guide, ordained minister, and lifelong student of the sacred, I’ve supported hundreds of intentional psilocybin journeys for individuals, couples, and groups. These are not just altered states. They are sanctuaries for release, remembrance, and return.
I bring not only spiritual depth, but years of experience in conscious technology, innovation, and systems design. My platform, Journey Home, weaves together storytelling, case study insights, and AI-powered reflection tools to support deep integration and soul remembrance. It’s not just about what happens in ceremony, it’s about how we bring it home, anchor it, and live it.
Whether you’re navigating loss, longing, burnout, or becoming, this work is an invitation to soften old identities and remember what’s most true.
If you’re here, whether for yourself or someone you love, I welcome you to explore. You’ll find my story and values, the types of clients I support, a clear view of my offerings, client testimonials, a living library of resources, guidance on ethics, privacy, and preparation, and an option to book a discovery call if and when it feels right.
Because the life you long for isn’t found by becoming someone else, it’s remembered, by coming home to who you’ve always been.
If this resonates, let’s connect.
From my Heart to Yours,
Yeshua Adonai
For individuals, couples, or groups: sacred journeys with personalized preparation, full-day facilitation, and integration support.
Support to process insights, embody growth, and align inner shifts with outer change, post-ceremony, microdosing, or simply your path.
Supporting safe, intentional, & respectful psilocybin relationships for groups, organizations, & communities seeking a deeper connection.
I hold this work with deep reverence and clear ethical standards, rooted in harm reduction, trauma-informed care, client autonomy, and legal integrity. I follow a strict No Medicine Included (NMI) policy and support only those who have independently chosen to engage in altered states, offering preparation, ethical presence, and integration guidance in a secure, confidential space. All communication is HIPAA-compliant, consent is explicit, and privacy is paramount. I provide education on RFRA protections, decriminalization, and responsible use, without offering substances or legal advice. My practice is supported by trusted affiliations, peer accountability, and a lived commitment to integrity and respect.
“…I’ve sat with a few guides, but what Yeshua offers after the ceremony is on another level. The integration plan he created for me was exquisitely attuned, naming subtleties I hadn’t spoken aloud, weaving meaning through every layer of my experience. It wasn’t a recap, it was a mirror, a map, and a companion. I return to it often, and each time it becomes even deeper. I’ve never felt so precisely understood.”
“I’ve worked with many coaches over the years, but Yeshua brings a level of precision and depth that’s unmatched. After the ceremony, and in every session since, he’s offered detailed integration plans that don’t just reflect what happened, they illuminate who I’m becoming. His reflections are clear, intuitive, and grounded in lived insight. I’ve never felt so consistently seen, named, and supported in my unfolding.”
“…After an overwhelming [ayahuasca] experience with another guide that left me feeling fractured and unsupported, I didn’t know where to turn. Yeshua helped me slow down, listen, and make meaning. His integration work is more than just support; it’s soul mapping. I no longer feel lost in the mystery.”
“My mind never stops. I feel everything. And for a long time, I thought that made me broken. With Yeshua, I found out it was actually a gift. His way with [psychedelics] is subtle… but deeply affirming. I finally feel at home in my sensitivity.”
“I’ve spent my life caring for others, but rarely knew how to care for myself. Yeshua held space for me to unravel gently. His ability to reflect what I couldn't quite name was unlike anything I’d experienced. In his presence, I felt not just understood, but truly witnessed. That changed everything.”
“…In the chaos of deadlines and launches, I lost my voice. Yeshua helped me pause long enough to hear it again. His insights were subtle but surgical, cutting through confusion with clarity and care. The real shift? I began creating not from pressure, but from something honest. Something that felt like me.”
“I was burned out, stuck in old roles and stories. Yeshua asked the kind of questions that don’t just get answers… they rearrange how you see yourself. His reflections pierced through the noise and helped me recognize what was ready to change. I return to the classroom not just renewed, but re-rooted in who I am…”
“On paper, my life looked perfect. But inside, I was numb. Ceremony with Yeshua cracked something open… I remembered joy. His guidance brought me into deeper honesty, and helped me start living again, not just performing...”
“…I’ve done therapy, EMDR, VA programs, nothing got to the heart of it like this. With Yeshua, I found a way back to the part of me that wasn’t shaped by trauma. I felt peace in my body for the first time in decades.”
“I built a life on logic and structure, but something in me was starving. Yeshua didn’t try to fix me. He simply listened… and somehow that made space for something real to emerge. Ceremony felt like a quiet homecoming.”
“Amid a high-stress time, navigating divorce, selling my company, and planning a new career. Yeshua’s guidance helped me realign with my values and discover a more purposeful path. His support deepened my understanding of myself as a caring contrarian, empowering me to live with more authenticity and balance...”
"After years in special operations and a high-paced life of international travel, I had never confronted the trauma from my military service. Yeshua’s professionalism and care created a space where I could begin to heal, while his support helped me navigate the complexities of my life with trust and clarity..."
“I approached this experience with curiosity and some skepticism, having followed [psychedelics] research for years. Over the last year, after a few ceremonies, I experienced a mystical awakening that transformed my atheistic worldview and became a vital part of my cancer recovery. This work was deeply personal and profoundly healing.”
This 20-minute complimentary Discovery Call is an opportunity for us to connect, one-on-one. No pressure, no expectations. Just space to feel into resonance, ask questions, and explore what’s calling you (or someone you care about) toward this path.
These calls are open to both seekers and their support systems, partners, loved ones, or anyone walking beside you. Whether you're preparing for a journey, supporting someone else, or simply feeling curious, you're welcome here.
After the call, if it feels aligned, I’ll invite you to join Homecoming, a secure, encrypted, HIPAA-compliant platform where we’ll stay connected throughout the journey. Homecoming is where you’ll complete a comprehensive intake process that includes reflective questions and clinical screening tools.
Once you’ve completed the intake, you’ll schedule a Screening Session, where we’ll review your responses together, and I’ll offer a thorough analysis of your readiness, including a careful scan for any contraindications or safety concerns. From there, we’ll explore the best next steps, whether or not we decide to work together.
You’ll also receive the Ceremony Readiness Guide if you don’t already have it, a high-value preparation and integration tool, shared at no cost to support your journey with clarity and care. Come as you are. We’ll begin wherever you are.
You can feel it, subtle, persistent. The old way isn’t working.
Not because you’re failing, but because you’re outgrowing it.
There’s a quiet tension between who you’ve been and who you’re becoming.
Not in crisis, but in a moment that matters.
You’re not here for surface change. You’re here for something real.
Whether you’re navigating a major shift, feeling drawn to psychedelic experiences, or simply longing to come home to yourself.
➤ This is the place where your next chapter begins.
My path has been anything but linear, shaped by war, devotion, collapse, and moments of awakening. I’ve lived through the extremes of leadership and loss, spiritual breakthrough and personal reckoning. These experiences didn’t break me; they refined me. What guides my work now is not theory, but a lived understanding of transformation, grounded in reverence for the human spirit. I support others not from a pedestal, but from the path itself, still walking, still learning, and showing up with presence, humility, and care.
Journey Home is a visionary initiative and digital ecosystem supporting the full arc of psychedelic transformation. It integrates a growing library of anonymized case studies, a compassionate AI reflection tool, and trauma-informed insights to deepen integration for seekers, guides, and the wider field. Participation is optional, and privacy is paramount, all data is handled with HIPAA-level security and strict confidentiality. Rooted in consent, reverence, and legal mindfulness, Journey Home is a living map of return for those walking the sacred path of becoming.
I serve as a psychedelic minister, trauma-informed guide, and integration specialist, supporting those ready to cross profound thresholds of transformation. My practice integrates ancestral ceremony, somatic work, and nature-led modalities with modern tools, including an encrypted mobile app, biofeedback, and AI, to offer a rare fusion of deep presence and precise reflection. Together, we create intentional containers to catalyze breakthroughs, regulate the nervous system, and help you remember and embody what’s most true.
Clients receive comprehensive preparation, detailed integration plans, and HIPAA-secure communication, all grounded in informed consent, spiritual autonomy, and harm reduction. As an ordained minister and leader in psychedelic church spaces, I also support those navigating the intersection of spirituality, legality, and healing with care and clarity.
Beyond one-on-one work, I contribute to the field through mentorship, public education, and policy advocacy, consulting with organizations and supporting safe access for all. I offer flexible pricing rooted in trust and mutual respect, and I’m proud to say that no one has ever been turned away due to financial constraints. Whether through extended integration support or technology-enhanced reflection tools, I serve not just as a guide, but as a mirror, mentor, and multidimensional bridge for those walking the sacred path of return.
Several hundred intentional psychedelic ceremonies facilitated since 2022, rooted in integrity, safety, and reverence. I support clients from all walks of life on deep inner journeys through skillful, presence-centered facilitation.
With over a decade of psychedelic experience, training, and mentorship, I’ve participated in dozens of guided ceremonies across a range of substances and settings, each held by teachers I've studied under. This path is grounded in clinical inquiry, spiritual devotion, and embodied integration. Lived, not learned.
Study with Shipibo, Mazatec, Andean, and other ceremonial traditions. I’ve walked with ceremonial leaders of indigenous wisdom, integrating their teachings with deep respect, reverence, and continued practice.
Based in Portland, Maine, a decriminalized city for natural entheogens. I’ve worked with professionals to shape safe, ethical protocols prioritizing harm reduction. Communication is secured via encrypted, HIPAA-compliant platforms, informed by my military background and top-secret clearance to ensure the highest standards of privacy and integrity.
Each client begins with a comprehensive intake. Including a full health history, optional consults with partner clinicians, coordination with primary care, and readiness assessments. Two complimentary sessions and a complete harm reduction package are provided, whether or not we choose to work together.
Empowering your choices and honoring your autonomy. I emphasize informed consent and clear understanding of risks and benefits. Confidentiality, boundaries, and authenticity are core to my ethic, balancing professionalism with a human-to-human connection.
Ministry-trained and actively involved in psychedelic church leadership. I’ve co-founded and stewarded entheogenic churches while helping others understand their spiritual and constitutional rights. I contribute to the evolving field of psychedelic law and spirituality, and in 02026, I intend to attend Harvard Divinity School with a focus on psychedelic chaplaincy.
Testified and contributed to state, city, and national psychedelic reform. As a combat veteran, I’ve used my voice to advocate for decriminalization, ethical regulation, education, harm reduction, and publicly supported research. My efforts include testimony, policy letters, and collaboration with the Veteran Mental Health Leadership Coalition (vmhlc.org) to promote safe, equitable access in this evolving field.
North Star Ethics Pledge signatory and active member of multiple peer guide networks. I consistently engage with mentors and peers, some advising me for nearly a decade, for accountability, feedback, ongoing growth, professional integrity, and adherence to evolving ethical standards through communities like the Psychedelic Guide Network, Open Circle Alliance, and psychedelic salons.
Public education and community engagement through talks, panels, and workshops on psychedelic literacy, safety, and de-stigmatization. I teach principles of harm reduction and have spoken at Maine Fungi Fest, Common Ground Fair, podcasts, and more, supporting communities across the Northeast and beyond.
Supporting new guides and advising psychedelic organizations. I mentor emerging facilitators and consult with organizations on systems, protocols, and alignment with best practices for healing-centered, ethical work.
My practice draws from biomimicry, breathwork, somatic and energy work, guided by nature’s living intelligence. I offer intuitive support through deep listening to land, body, soul, and ancestral memory. Clients are invited to reconnect with place, community, and the more-than-human world. I serve as a mirror to help restore connection with the web of life.
For decades, I’ve devoted myself to prayer, meditation, and mindfulness. What began as a search for peace evolved into a path of awakening, guided by Thich Nhat Hanh, Paramahansa Yogananda, and G.I. Gurdjieff, among others who have shaped my being and thinking. I remain a lifelong student of the mystics. I walk with the Mystery. Not to arrive, but to be reshaped by love.
Biofeedback, AI, and encrypted tools support integration and insight. With consent, sessions are recorded to build a living archive. AI helps surface patterns and inform personalized plans. Clients gain tools to recognize triggers, regulate their nervous system, and embody change, enhancing, never replacing, human connection. I'm also developing a psychedelic facilitator AI to expand access to safe, healing-centered care.
Financial flexibility for those who need it most. This work is meant to be available to all, especially those carrying the deepest burdens. I offer income-based pricing, payment plans, and financial sponsorships for anyone who applies. Veterans and frontline workers receive reduced rates, and no one is turned away due to cost. Access is a right, not a privilege.
Custom action plans, post-session reviews, and extended care. Each session is followed by a tailored integration plan, with asynchronous coaching available through a secure platform. This support continues well beyond ceremony, often lasting months or even years, to help clients weave their insights meaningfully into daily life.
Dive into my latest reflections on spirituality, psychedelics, and community through the live feed below. Each post offers a glimpse into my thoughts, passions, and values, inviting you to engage with meaningful insights and connections.
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“Transformation isn’t a destination, it’s a devotion to waking up again and again, with honesty, humility, and heart.”
If something in you is stirring, an ache, a question, a quiet knowing, you’re invited to step forward. Whether you’re standing at the edge of a breakthrough, walking through uncertainty, or simply sensing that it’s time, this is a space to begin.
This work begins in conversation, not commitment. You’re welcome to book a complimentary 20-minute discovery call to explore if this path feels aligned, or reach out through the contact form with any reflections or inquiries.
Here, there is room for your truth. Your pace. Your presence. Your becoming. And just as your inner world is held with care, so too is your privacy. Any information you share is treated with reverence, protected - not extracted. You can learn more in the full Privacy Policy.
Let’s begin at the threshold together.
I’ve testified before governors, senators, and even a president to help shift the laws around psychedelics. If this work has touched your life, I invite you to learn more and join the movement. 👉 Explore the Advocacy & Reform page
